Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in jbjukebox's LiveJournal:

Monday, April 10th, 2006
2:05 pm	Again Well, I think for the first time I'm actually going to keep my word and write a little more. Mostly just venting about Boys again--I disagree with the thought that Girls and Boys can't be "just friends"...however I will concede the fact that Boys and Girls can't. Girls seem to have less trouble with this than Boys in my humble and limited experience - they can just be someone who you like hanging out with and have good conversations with and there can be no desperate need for not-so-platonic relations. Conversely however, Boys seem to be amazingly able to stay "just friends" with a Girl, despite possible... benefits (and, yes, that means sex)... Boys and Girls are different. They should be considered so. One question for the Boys out there though... why are Guys (mostly, not always) more highly attracted to Girls that kinda ignore them? I know there's that whole thing about wanting what you can't have, but I have seen proof that you can like what you've got too... I don't get it... yet... Current Mood: confused Current Music: the babies are back... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
11:54 am	Being Introspective Again Maybe it's the whole birthday thing, but I seem to have been thinking a lot about life in general lately. Little things like what I really want and how I'm going to get it. And who I want to be with (whether or not that's a good or bad thing I don't know). It seems to have sprung up all of a sudden that I'm the last single person I know (with only one exception that I can think of) and for some reason that makes the future appear a whole lot closer. I mean I always thought I would have lots of time, but it's all running out now... I have 6 weeks until I move, so I need to decide where I'm going to live first, I suppose. In 6 weeks I also have to find a proper job that will pay for a proper house and proper grown-up acquisitions. Then school... to go back or not to go back?? Then... well... decide if all of that is something that I really want to share with someone for the rest of my life; despite choice or lack of choice at that time. I don't wanna be a grown-up yet - I can't believe that this is all I have to look forward to, that nothing is going to change more than the usual, but I can't see any other way around it. Blah! Or maybe I smoked too much pot on the weekend. Who knows? Anyway, I should get back to work. Maybe I'll write more later... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Could use something nice... (Comment on this)
Monday, March 20th, 2006
3:30 pm	It's been a while... I figured I would just update this for the sake of updating it. I didn't even look at the last entry I wrote, but I'm sure it has been a while since then. And since then I feel more, um, settled (that would be a good word for it) with "things", despite some obvious confusion. Now I just have to reconcile my actions with my thoughts & feelings -- this is not an easy thing for me to do, especially when it involves other people. I just want to know why a person will want someone they can't have & meanwhile not want a person they can have... There must be some divine merriment occuring over situations like mine... It feels more like I'm giving up... I lost my thought, I'll come back later. Current Mood: sad Current Music: the usual (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
3:20 pm	On the move again.... I feel like I should be singing, but I don't want to. Oh well, one more move. For a couple of months anyway... I will be packing it all up & (hopefully) move everything over to the townhouse this weekend. I have been debating getting a proper phone hooked up (the last people did leave one) & maybe some internet (assuming that I buy a computer), but I am so cheap & I'm supposed to be saving money... right? Anyway, I won't ask anyone to help out this time around, but if you wanna come keep me company in the next couple of weeks while I sort things out I won't say no. I'm sorry that I've been uncommunicative, but I'm sick & stressed, & my new doctor is weird. I will talk to you guys later :-) Current Mood: cranky Current Music: crying babies...again... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
3:42 pm	Um, is this a good thing? I don't feel like writing a real entry, so I took Andy's Cartoon Test instead... Transformers rule! I did actually watch this show as a child. It may have been 'cause my brother was watching it, but I liked the crossover movies... I am such a nerd... I know way too many people who are into this right now, thus ensuring that I know more than I should about Transformers--I'm not sure that being aggressive and knowing things about Transformers are going to help in my search for a "normal" relationship. At least they didn't try to tell me that I was a Deceptacon or something. Transformers! You scored 55 Aggression and 35 Silliness! You are Transformers! You are....more than meets the eye! You are strong, willful, and no-nonsense. You're assertive and confident. I bet you're the tough one in your group of friends. Transformers was always one of my favorites when I was little, which makes it hard to write this result without bias...Suffice to say, you totally rule. My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 61% on Aggression You scored higher than 10% on Silliness Link: The 80s Cartoon Personality Test written by TheLadyEve on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
3:53 pm	Just an update So I met with Natalie yesterday. Now that was interesting. Despite everything that has been going on, I really didn't have that much to say & I hadn't planned out any form of confession or attack. I just wanted to see if any of this was worth saving... (time just makes me want to hope...) So what did we do? We sat there for 2 hours saying nothing & nothing of any consequence. In the end we decided that bygones are bygones... and I will bring desert to Girls' Night... At least she returned my cheques to me. Not that it matters - I spent the $10 to put a stop payment on them anyway. I wanna start a new Girls' Night with people I actually like. Maybe I should just spend more time with people I actually like because it really doesn't happen very often, now that I'm thinking about it. Hrm. I got an offer to pseudo-house-sit for Marg Osbourne (nursing is such a wonderful faculty) for the next couple of months if it works out. From the sounds of it it is brand new (she takes possession on the 18th) and would be flexible until April-Juneish. Depending on how much she wants I think this would be cool (it has been implied that she may only want the cost of utilities...). The one downside to getting me out of my mom's house cheap - its in New Discovery/Discovery Ridge. Hwy 8 up by Westhills for those unfamiliar with this part of town. As far as I can tell this puts me really far away from everything. In the middle of winter no less. I will have to see how it goes. Anyway, I am going to cease this written version of verbal diarrhea and get back to work before the day is over. Talk to you guys later (because I know there's only a couple of you reading this)... :-) Current Mood: blank Current Music: crying babies - again... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 27th, 2005
11:37 am	Natalie is nuts See? Alliteration answers all. Ok, I need more sleep on a regular basis. Natalie continues to write notes under the guise of being concerned about our friendship and saddened by circumstances; meanwhile, there are veiled insults and truly disturbing confessions in them. I give up. I honestly don't know how to respond anymore... if I do I think I may do something damaging to her, seeing as she is in such a fragile mental state. I will edit this later... Current Mood: aggravated (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
10:37 am	Sitting in clinic again It seems the only time that I sit still long enough to write is if clients don't show up for their appointments. I guess I've been doing too good of a job keeping myself busy lately. Is this a bad thing? According to some it must be... And evidently I'm a complete psycho, but, frankly, anyone who didn't know that about me by now didn't really know me at all. The trouble is that I took too many psych classes in school, I know what's wrong with me, but none of it is diagnosable... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
1:17 pm	Hey Kim I'm off for the weekend, so I'll give you a call later. I hope work is going ok. J (Comment on this)
1:09 pm	I'm not sure this is a good thing... I'd love to have the guts to wear that dress though :-) Even if I am evil... I'm not sure this would have been the same last year at this time... I think I would have been a little nicer... Glorificus 72% amorality, 54% passion, 54% spirituality, 45% selflessness You probably have a complicated, multi-faceted personality. Kind of like Glory-Ben-Glorificus. Passionate and driven with a spiritual side that comes out at times, a healthy taste for the finer things in life and a willingness to do what's necessary to achieve your ends. You're assertive and have no problems standing up for yourself. And, push come to shove, you're the closest anyone's ever come to straight-up beating the Slayer and her gang. Congratulations! If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following: Nerds, Geeks & Dorks Professional Wrestling Love & Sexuality America/Politics Thanks Again! -- THE 4-VARIABLE BUFFY PERSONALITY TEST My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 76% on morality You scored higher than 27% on repose You scored higher than 28% on spirituality You scored higher than 36% on selflessness Link: The 4-Variable Buffy Personality Test written by donathos on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
4:23 pm	Am I gonna havta keep doin this? Ok, now that I've gotten myself into this... Hrmph... I'm just finishing up at work & I don't have any miraculous epiphanies to report, so... Bye :-) P.S. the spellchecker didn't like the word "hrmph", however "hr mph" and "hr-mph" were fine... am i missing something?... stupid spellchecker... lol Current Mood: confused Current Music: crying babies (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
11:45 am	Ok Kim, this one's for you Entry number one. I have lots to say, but I'm at work right now & I can't spend the time. I am really weirded out that I'm discussed on the internet & I just told off the offender, so now he's really uncomfortable... I feel slightly better. Maybe I'll play with this more later. Jen in right ... Boys are stupid. It's weird how perceptions change about people you thought you knew, though. Current Mood: uncomfortable (8 Comments |Comment on this)